I always turn the car around.

In a way, I need a change from this burnout scene
Another time, another town, another everything
But it's always back to you

As for the hurt--it's still there, but it finally feels distant. The pain which had previously haunted my every move seems like nothing but a long-lost echo. Memories are finally becoming what they were always meant to be--memories--after all this time. And all I ever wanted was this blinding opportunity that has always been sitting right next to me. I don't know what compelled me to let it all out ("get it all out, rip it out, remove it, etc. Don't be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed") and although it wasn't easy, I'm so glad I chose to tell you how I felt.

Stumble out in the night from the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought, "There's more I need"
It's always back to you

And here I am because enough was enough. I'm caught inside this whirlwind of overwhelming emotions ranging from understated contentment to a freeing independence from this burden I've been bearing to complete peace and satisfying elation. I'm okay. I'm really okay. These spontaneous leaps of faith are really working out in my favor. My chains are gone. I'm finally free.

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you