in brokenness i can see that this was Your will for me

(I want summer back. But anyway,)

I think a lot of "unhappy" people considers themselves to be that way because they dwell on the past too deeply and too often. I admit, if I were to focus on everything that's happened these past few years, on every friendship I wish had turned out differently or how much I miss Jon, I might start to feel melancholy also.

We need to focus on the present and the future because that's where the hope lies. "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for (Hebrews 11:1.)" Focus on what you can do for Christ and for those around you. We're only human--we're unable to change the past. We hear that all the time and I think we have become immune to how true that statement is. It's okay to reminisce every once and awhile, but it's a dangerous place to hover. I understand that moving on might seem scary and it might be a huge step out of our personal comfort zones, but I think it's certainly worth a shot when we compare it to our other choice(s.) Keep what's important--don't forget lessons learned. Instead, take those lessons and apply them to the way your life is now.

(I stole this idea from ninth grade me.

July 29, 2006

so ive been thinking about a lot of stuff lately
and i have decided one way to ensure happiness is...:
never look back

that probably sounds really stupid but think about it
if you sit and think about all the memories that you had with someone
memories that made you laugh and memories that were happy
and you compare those memories to what you have now
which.... well, you dont have that person at all
its going to make you sad, not only because you lost it, but because you once had it
that probably doesnt make sense
but if you sit around all day and cry and think about how great things used to be, you arent going to move on
i think all you need to focus on is the future and all the great things it can bring
dont stay stuck in the past, youll only stay there and not be able to proceed further with your life
more people need to accept that things are just never going to be the way they used to be, no matter how much you think about it
so why even bother looking back? it wont change anything, it will just make you feel [bad]

yeah, so thats my random piece of advice for the day
i dont think i explained that very well but i think everyone knows what i mean
looking back is deadly, it can kill you, inside and out
stay focused on your goals and what you really want out of life and i think youll be okay)